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| I keep having weird dreams with boys that I haven't talked to in forever. and sorta ended on weird terms? First Eddy, then Chris? :o like, one right after the other. >.< weeeeird. and I have no idea why, or like, why right now haha like, what triggered it? :o but anyways. :|
my phone battery is sorta dying already. meaning its starting to suck. meaning i'm gonna need a new phone AGAIN. but I have NO money whatsoever. and I need a job already SERIOUSLY. like, now. I'm tired of not having one. I've applied everywhere and I never hear anything back. at least Target actually tells me that they don't have any positions open or that I didn't qualify. jeez. Don't leave me hanging please?
akfhaakdha. anyone know of a place that hired fer sure? :/ or maybe you know the manager and can hook it up :( please? lol. i'm like, so desperate ha. seriously. i resorted to PET SITTING. and still haven't gotten any replies to any of the jobs i applied to on there. :((((((((( askjhdakhas. yeah i'm moving soon, and should probably wait until after? but i seriously need one now. ahhh okay i'm done haha.
i need to do my homework but for some reason i'm soooo tired :/ i need to eat better. lol. or.. more. and the right stuff ha cuz i barely do cuz we have no food. and this is all rather pointless and like, rambling ha so i'll stop :D | | |
| I still don't know what to do for my birthday >.< true it's like 10 weeks away? or something like that, but ahh 18! haha. I mean, I wanna have a party of some kind, but last time no one showed :| I wasn't really talking to Kristina though :/ or Kattie I think. So I didn't really have anyone reliable to invite. And it wasn't in the location I wanted either. Danielle planned it -_- she thought the Grove would be a good idea.. um, no. hahaha it's far from everyone ha. But whatever. So I'm thinking party at my casa? or something. but eh. I don't know what stuff to do.. while at my house. That's my problemo. So any ideas? Feel free to share. They'd be greatly appreciated.
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| So I was writing a blog but NO. Safari crashed :| oh well. I wasn't that far into it.
I think moving might be a good thing for me. I mean, I like living in North Hollywood. I see Eddie a lot, and I still live pretty close to Eagle Rock, but eh. There's not that much to do here when you don't drive. I can't drive to Ventura Blvd and go get frozen yogurt whenever I want. Seeing as I have no money and no car lol. So I don't know. And I think living near the beach will be more.. peaceful? Hopefully lol. I never go outside here >.< so I think living close to the beach will give me an excuse lol. I just seem some kind of bike or skateboard first :/ so I can ride it around when I live there. But oh well. Soon hopefully. Man I feel like this isn't making any sense haha I'll probably edit it or something.
But man oh man. So my friend Nicole who I was really super close to and now we don't really talk anymore :( askdhaksdh. I feel like whenever I message her she doesn't wanna talk or something, or maybe she'd mad at me for who knows what? NO IDEA. but anyways! Back to the point. She put a bunch of songs in the ipod that Eddie and I sorta share. not so much anymore, but yaye. So there was this song that I loved called The Fear You Won't Fall by Joshua Radin. wow. :) so cute. anyways. So I searched his name on Limewire and downloaded a bunch of the songs that came up and honestly, I like all of them :) they're so.. soft haha and cute. Which Kristina says is my style haha. Okay, maybe there's like one song that's kinda too slow, but the rest I like haha. ahh I'm so happy haha. I've been meaning to find new music for awhile. so yeah. I'm content with my findings.
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| um yeeeeah. i hate myself. hahahaha. well, my like, 14 year old self. i'm going to make a video dedicated to my younger self like, 9th grade and younger? idk how young. but yes! haha i sooo need to get all this out of my system. haha reading all of my past entries has motivated me to do this lol and just thinking back of how much help i needed haha and like, how many wronggggg choices i made :| i would totally go back and fix it all if i could hahaha. butcha can't. and idk blah blah i'd be different. ju knowww. the usual response to "would you go back in time to change things?"
so i've been neglecting my youtube because i didn't have sound on my computer for AGES. it totally sucked :( but now that i'm back, i've been watching new people (creeper o_o) hahaha they're videos, and idk. i feel all artsy and inspired now :) so hopefully something good comes as a result.
i also have grown to really love painting. i totally need better paint though :( but alas, i have no money. but anyways. ahh idk i've seen all these people with amazing paintings and i'm just like, wow. i could do that if i practice lol. so that's what i need to do.. once i get paint and all. which will hopefully be soon?
ahhhh MOVING AGAIN. this time farther away, to the santa monica area. probably culver city? or something like that. but yes, i'm in desperate need of a skateboard and found one on ebay for $10!!!! askhdfkadh. shipping is $15 but if you're local you can just pick it up. and the item is located in orange county. and my mom is going there wednesday and the bidding ends tomorrow and askdhask. I really really want it :( i need a real skateboard that's actually mine. plus once i'm near the beach it'll totally come in handy. since i don't have a bike because said person fucking lost it.
EDIT from a previous post: I STRONGLY DISLIKE DANIELLE HOLLANDER.
just so you know. haha no more BFF OHEMGEE. ugh. such a long story. haha actually, not really. she's just REALLY stuck up and like, spoiled. it's not even that she has money. i know plenty of people with more money than me. that's.. pretty much everyone. it's just the way she acts about it. like, she shows it off and like, gets her nails done for like $60. aksdhaksd. JUST LEAVE THEM! haha. you're homeschooled anyways no ones gonna see them. well, maybe at your "job" when you babysit o_o wouldn't they just get messed up?
oh man. i could go ON AND ON. but i'm not going to for the sake of my sanity. and whoever that is reading this. which is probably no one? but maybe. who knows. hello there if you are :)
*sigh*
well, i'm gonna go plan this video to my younger self.
TOODLES ALL.
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| omg well.. it's been awhile since i've been on this thing. alot has happened.. once again. um. No more Prichard. ugh. i think i was a little too. . .what's the word. . .well, lets just say i was a little bit hyped up on the fact that i had a boyfriend i guess, since it had been awhile? I have no idea. but i admit, i was a little. . .excited. lol. Looking back i feel so idiotic. and like, naive. lol. I wrote so many like, little stories and stupid things expressing my like for him. -_- uggh. i sometimes wish i could go back and changed how i acted. but whatever. I'd be a different person if i hadn't of done those things. Whatever. Things happen.. Move on. well, we broke up because.. of the distance for one thing. and idk. he started acting like a jerk.. in my eyes anyways. he wouldn't really talk to me. and i whenever i talked to him it was because i messaged him. or i called him. it was always me that made the effort. I don't know. he would sometimes. but eh. not really. and whenever we did talk.. it seemed like he didn't want to. or he wasn't paying attention. omg. i sat of the phone for 20 minutes.. of DEAD SILENCE. I guess he hung up or set the phone down or something. i don't know. and i honestly don't care anymore. i moved on. not as quickly as he did though. he's on his what. . .3rd? 4th gf? I don't know. Whatever. I'm on my first since him. But I'm actually sticking to this one for awhile. he's good.
Eddie's his name. I met him at NHHS. um. my third period. lol. well, ex-third period. because i'm going to options for youth now.. to get ahead and stuff. so i can be a senior next year with Igor, Danielle, Karo, Mickie.. etc. the majority of the people i hang out with from NH. anyways.. eddie. yeah. he's pretty great. i haven't seen him in like, a week cuz i've been grounded because I got hamsters behind my dads back and he pretty much freaked out..but he's moving out like in February or January so i don't know why he cares so much. but oh well. what can you do, right? but anyways. yeah. we used to go to the park all the time.. well, we went like 3 or 4 times. but still! lol. watched the squirrels and stuff. haha. It was pretty chill. but yeah. um. what else?? There's no real way to describe Eddie. He's pretty amazing. He's different. Even Ashlee can tell.. and she hasn't even met the guy! lol. so i guess it's noticeable? No idea. all i know is that i really like this kidd. and i miss him alot. onto something else..
Danielle. oh wow. We pretty much hang out..everyday. I'm not even joking. lol. and if i don't see her.. we're talking on the phone and i'm checking her myspace for her. lol. She even called me today from citywalk.. while watching a MOVIE. in the THATRE. just to check her myspace. lol. well, she has her reasons. those of which i won't say.. for her privacy. lol. She knows... People.com. hahaha. oh jeez. Don't even get us started. haha. well, i honestly don't remember how we started talking so much. I don't even remember the first time she called me. -_- oh well.. i'll figure it out. haha. um. I know we had a phase where we were going to the gym like, everyday. hahaha. seriously. for like, at least 30 minutes.. sometimes an hour.. our knees would be hurting. haha. i remember that. and we currently have an obsession for hot chocolate from 7-11. our first obsession was crunch wraps from Taco Bell.. but that died somehow. Gossip Girl. omg. haha. Best show ever.
I still try my best to visit my old buddies from Eagle Rock.. well, i shouldn't say that. they're not my "old" buddies. we still are. i just, don't see them as often. or as much as i would like to. uggh. I reeeeallly need to start driving. like, seriously. that way i don't have to ask my parents for rides. or what if i need to make a quick stop somewhere.. exactly! but noooo. They say i need car insurance first. What the heck? that's lamesauce. but whatever. they're like "you're 16, and to show you're mature enough to drive, you need to be mature, and wait." -_-
well, i think i'm gonna cut this thing short. well, it's kinda long, but you get me. I might add more later.. or just write a seperate thing. Who knows..
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